Chris Brown has opened up like never before, and it’s exactly what we were hoping for from his recently released documentary, Welcome To My Life.
On the fateful night that changed his career path and will remain as asterisk on his life forever, the R&B superstar candidly speaks to the cameras about the events that led up to him assaulting his then girlfriend Rihanna in 2009.
At the time, the young superstars were the hottest couple in the industry, but behind the scenes their relationship was fiery and filled with heated arguments. According to Brown, they were attending Clive Davis’ annual Grammy party in February 2009 when he was approached by another female, who he previously had sexual relations with, but did not know was going to be at the gala event. Rihanna was aware of their past and she became incredibly upset that the other woman was there and that she tried to speak to Brown.
“The ceremony’s about to start, she’s just crying,” Chris recalled about Rihanna. “She got over it. She started drinking a little bit, we both was drinking a little bit. We was tipsy, laughing, joking, and then we left.”
Later that night, while driving, Rihanna saw a text message on Brown’s phone from the same woman, which led her to believe he knew the other woman would be at the party.
“She starts going off, she throws the phone,” he said. “‘I hate you.’ Starts hitting me… She hits me a couple of more times and it doesn’t go from translation to ‘let’s sit down, I’m telling you the truth.’ It goes to, ‘Now, I’m going to be mean, be evil.’”
“I remember she tried to kick me, but then I really hit her, with a closed fist, I punched her. I busted her lip,” he recalled. “When I saw it, I was in shock. I was like, ‘F—, why the hell did I hit her?’”
“From there she just spit in my face,” Brown continued. “Spit blood in my face and it enraged me even more.”
Brown and Rihanna continued to scuffle until he pulled the car over, and at this point, she takes the keys out of the ignition.
“She takes the keys out of the car and fakes like she throws them out of the window,” Brown said. “I get out of the car and I’m looking for the keys and somebody yelled and she yells out her door, ‘Help, he’s trying to kill me.’”
Brown says he lost his true self at that moment, insisting, “that’s not me.”
“I look back at that picture and I’m like that’s not me, bro, that’s not me. I hate it to this day. That’s going to haunt me forever.”
Brown met Rihanna when he was 15, and the two quickly developed a connection and fell in love. The relationship began spiraling downhill after Brown told Rihanna that he had sex with another female.
“My trust totally was lost with her,” Brown said. “She hated me after that. I tried everything, she didn’t care. She just didn’t trust me after that. From there, it just went downhill because there were too many verbal fights, physical fights as well. Mutual sides.”
Brown admits that before that vicious night in February 2009, the two would fight all the time.
“We would fight each other. She would hit me, I would hit her and it never was OK,” he says.
“There was always a point where we’d talk about it like, ‘What the f— are we doing?” he continued. “Like, ‘I don’t like you slapping me.’ If I go on stage I got a scratch on my face and I gotta explain it like, ‘Oh, no I fell.’ If you got a scar or a bruise you gotta put makeup on. I’m not ever trying to put my hands on any female.”
He added, “I felt like a f—ing monster.”
Chris Brown’s Welcome To My Life is now out on VOD, DVD and Blu-Ray.
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